Hormonal imbalance or what?

Should men be conceited, women are conscious.

Apparently, not only counseling can make you see things in a clear thought process--books can. Lots of it can technically prove a statement. Say.. people of the same interest are most likely to fall in love? It depends entirely on the person who perceives it. Like, someone who studies literature is apt to find someone who studies the same subjects worthy of attention. Or maybe, an actor from an obscured town would meet someone from the same place and actually make magic. And with these examples, all can surmise that the books my realization was based upon are cheesy romance novels. The problem is, what if I don't find someone whose interests equal mine? Because, all things considered, I don't have a specific passion. My interest are jumbled and non-categorical.

What bugs me-a female- is what part of myself is interesting. If miraculously, googling yourself can show all the unique things that make you attractive and unparalleled, I would, by all means, stop wallowing and pronounce myself capable of a mature relationship. But instead displaying my utter happiness for a matter that seems so out of reach, here I am suffering from existential crisis.

So, existential crisis might be a bit exponentially heavy a term for what I am feeling at the moment. The point is, maybe I 'm just secretly yet desperately trying to extend attributes I don't have. So, I want to rediscover my true self and be comfortable with it.


1.You are a Nursing student, one of your interests is helping people alleviate pain.
2.You enjoy books imbued with fantasy, romance, homosexuality, dark themes, and drama.
3.You love movies with subtle plots and poignant lines.
4. You love music with simple but deeply moving lyrics.
5. You watch comedies with satire, a bit of parody and carnal stupidity.
6. You support the LGBT in your own emotional way.
7. Odd things interest you, like weird animals, unconventional art, hidden stories, and  bent historical facts.
8. You take interest in Serial Killer's psyche.
9. If someone brags about reading/watching something that is to them the best thing ever, you read/watch it  for proof or just to prove them wrong.
10.You prefer imagination that's why you hate graphic novels (yet you still won't miss movies based on books you've read even if there are only a few) .
11. You love movies with narration.
12. You love working with eye make-ups.
13. You don't want to be called stupid although you're not really that smart.
14.You attempted to learn lucid dreaming.
15. You get lost inside your mind too often.
16. You obsess with things excessively (remeber slash fandom? SXS, J2?).
17. You plot your own love story to the nines.
18. You try too much to make a statement.
19. You write when you just don't know anymore..

TBC..

One of my plans to know my life is not in the static line.

 **I shall collect a memento from every place  I go and put it in a Scrapbook.
 **Put in the date, the name of the person you're with and a sentence or two about your thoughts.

Keep in mind, that you are special! If people don't see this, then you are not to incorporate said people in any way into your life but  mere pebbles on the way. As what I have said earlier, how interesting a person can be depends on the individual who perceives it; there is someone out there who sees or will see you as the only girl unequaled. Yep, you just have to utilize the proverbial wait. ^^