Your Life is No Life

Your Life is No Life

You wake up and wipe away the drool at the corner of your mouth; pretend it was part of your dream. Only fat people drool in their sleep; not you, you exercise. You blindly feel for your toothbrush in the sink, grasp it, squint to confirm the color is right, it is yours, and start brushing away the grime of your last meal. You spit and look at the mirror—shit, your reflection reminds you of shit. You close the bathroom door in search for some undies and a towel. You ignore your mom’s cheerful mood; mumble a sorry excuse of a “gumornin”.

You skip breakfast, you’re late. Your shower covered more than 15 minutes because the feel of conditioner on your hair is too good to rinse. You grab your allowance, bid a quick goodbye and wait for a vehicle to school.

The trip will consist of some secret romantic story you’re plotting for today—it never happens. A hilarious thought  breaks into the forefront of your mind—you laugh and hide it with a frown. You think about sex and wonder if someone can read minds; you think a command to let said mind readers raise their hand. No one does, you feel safe. You feel the vehicle stop and got down.

You have the sudden feeling of dread for probably leaving your ID at home. You frantically dig up your bag, it’s there, you sigh and look disgustingly smug at the guard. You start your countdown till the end of the day. You remember that friends make school a wonderful place, you ignore your countdown.

You start class with a smile until your professor enters the class and you find yourself with knitted eyebrows. You reconsider the countdown. Your class ends, your butt feels tingly. You go to lunch and wish one hour lasts longer—it doesn’t. Your professor gives you a quiz, you got low, and it’s entirely the professor’s fault. You don’t pay attention in the next class because you are venting your anger of the previous quiz to your classmate. Your professor announces a surprise test, you curse. Your day ends.

Your ride home blanks your train of thoughts. You yell for your mom to open the door because you cannot hold your pee anymore. Your mom is cooking dinner; your undies are almost wet. You take another shower, eat your dinner. You make up your mind whether to brush your teeth or not. You opt not to. You tuck yourself in your blanket and you start imagining your love story for tomorrow, a funny memory almost makes you laugh, you remember your most embarrassing moment and hide under your pillow. Minutes later you are sleeping. Hours later you are drooling. You wake up and wipe away the drool at the corner of your mouth; pretend it was part of your dream.

Inspired by an Eisley song..

Let’s Dream Away Our Love

And the meadow would be our sea..

The wild flowers our fishes-swaying and not gliding away

We would lie there and look at the sun as if the light were not blinding

Because the meadow is our sea, and all light will not shine through..

And everything we touch would be our own..

We’d feel the grass graze our fingertips, like waves so piquant, so liminal.

And we would turn to gaze at each other’s eyes, lost in our own bubble

Because everything we touch would be our own, and we could just swim away to impasse..

And we would forget about any semblance of pain..

Let the permeating scent of mint soothe our body to a high, breathe away anything else

Your hand would be my only anchor to any amount of sensation; it’s just you and me, and you and me

Because we would forget about any semblance of pain, and we will never see the day we cry..

And we would unfound the world..

Our only origin would the magnetic force that binds us; everything else would be an enigma

The sinewy muscles of your arms would hide me way from any gusty winds, hidden wonderfully away

Because we would unfound the world, and all that I would know about is the existence of the both of us..

And people with no love life at all are allowed to be sappy sometimes.

You Are Not For Me, But I Still Think You Are

I will never have the courage to say this to anyone. Okay, maybe I will change my mind and blabber all of these things to my friends eventually, but know that I am a big, fragile ball of emotions right now; and it’s because I am in a state of rock-bottom vulnerability. You will never know.. you will never know that every time you arbitrarily visit our school, somebody ‘s day—my day is brighter than any other sunny day.

And I will never have the courage to thank you for making me realize that yes, somebody might just be listening to silly wishes, because after all, part of my wish have come true. That’s another thing you will never know—that at some point in my boring life, I asked for someone like you. The only sour thing is, you came to pass by and not to knock on my door.

I will never have the courage ask your name. And I already do, but it’s nice to have proper introductions, and trust me when I say I have come up with every romantic way it could happen. Will they ever get out of my overactive imagination and solidify right in front of me? I guess, I will never know.

I will never have the courage to tell you to visit more frequently, because who am I to ask for your time? You will never know that I always picture you with me, and how I always promise to be myself if you would give me a chance, because I know we would be perfect. You just have to see me, talk to me, know me; but you will never.

I will never have the courage to tell you that this week is the best week of my life, because you were almost always present. You will never hear my voice nor see me look at you, because if there’s something worse than a coward, then that’s me.  You will never know that this is the first time in a long time that I’ve felt like this again.

I will never have the courage to tell you all of these, and I wish courage is just a shirt I can wear, because I really, really like you. You will never know that I’m tired of acting like a lady waiting for your move, because I know the meaning of “unrequited ” and “impossible”. I wish I weren’t a coward. I wish you’re not out of my league.

If Children Were Given A Chance To Write To The President

Research was boring. That was a fact none of us could deny even if fronted with some bucks-- or we could always lie, right? Anyways, why waste my time when I could do some work of my own as I decided not to listen? I've always loved kids and having met some this week, I tried looking at the world in their point of view. Well, I was thinking of Pink's song "Dear Mr. President" at that moment, so I came up with these letters supposedly written by children 6-12 years old. ^^


Dear Mr. President,

                 I woke up today without breakfast, so I went down the river to pick up some stones and shells to boil. When the time comes that I go to school, will I still do this? I don't want to get late. Besides, won't I get hungry if I only have soup? Mama told me we'll never get the right nuti-- nutrisian. I don't even know what that is, will I ever? If it's so important, why don't we have it? Mr. President, what did you have for breakfast?


Dear Mr. President,

               I was cleaning a car window earlier. It surprised me when a hand came up and stroked my chest. I thought the man was just looking for something-- my cute button, I guess. He asked me if I want a new job and I excitedly said "Yes". Mr. President, now all I have to do is lie down the bed and let them touch me. I'm 8 and I 'm earning money! Mr. President, do I make your chest swell with pride?


Dear Mr. President,

           Last night I was roaming the streets for some spare change. Out of nowhere, a car sped up the road. I didn't really see what happened, all I remembered was waking up in the hospital and crying. I was paralyzed from the neck down. My mom was crying and I couldn't even move my fingers to wipe away her tears. I heard them talking about "euthanasia" or something. She said we have  no funds for food much less my hospitalization. Mr. President, how long do you wanna live? If you would ask me, I 'd like to live long enough to learn how to run from cars again.


Dear Mr. President,

             My teacher asked  the class to make a drawing of our perfect world. I drew mine with the big wings of my pet dove. Ms. Wenson said I was so smart to know that doves symbolize peace. It was all accidental, but I still said that the idea was all mine. I came  home feeling guilty because of what I did.I lied to my teacher and the whole class. Tomorrow, I'll say sorry and tell them the truth. I would never do it again, I promise! Mr. President, have you ever felt guilty before? I bet not, because I'm sure you don't lie. You're the president.


Dear Mr. President,


           My dad hit mom and there was blood and objects thrown around the house. I just sat there howling with tears.I've never wanted something to stop so bad in that moment. The word "money' was all over their argument. I even heard them say "economy". Who the heck is Economy? I want to kick his ass! He made Dad hit Mom! Mr. President, please don't let Economy hurt anyone again, especially my mom.



Soooooo yeaaahh. I'll think of some more! ^^

My Memento Scrapbook or whatever

So, as my life felt like living in monotone, I have said before that I would make a memento book or whatever. Thing is, the whole deal is going well. Every time I put something in it (so far I have 3 entries), I can't help but feel my lips twitch up a little. I am currently enjoying it. Well, I am pretty much proud of myself for actually utilizing the plan. I have, for some cosmic reasons, abandoned lots and lots and LOTS of thought up activities. This going on right here is a drastic, positive change. I LOVE IT!

Oh, the book is yellow with green lettering of "MEMORIES" in front-just perfect. Although "MEMENTO" would have been equally perfect, too. ^^

Sometimes, you would think about the best way to live your life, and that would be it--a thought. Most of the time, you wouldn't think and just act on a particular moment, and that would be it--living.

His Graveyard made me think and well.. cry.

I have heard millions of praises for Neil Gaiman and after reading Stardust, I had a pretty good idea as to why that is. So, after countless of relentless nagging from my Ate to actually read some more of his books, I conceded.

Just earlier, I finished reading The Graveyard. It was enchanting to the point where you would ignore other plans just to finish it. I would not prattle about every detail, but this was a book ought to be read by all ages—well young adults and above.  The book was genius per se, but the message and how it was conveyed left me to tears of utter amazement.

Nobody Owens, due to the tragic murder of his family when he was only a year old, was adopted by the ghosts of the graveyard. He was assigned parents and a guardian-an esoteric guardian who disappeared weeks at a time due to a more mysterious job. Needless to say, everyone in the area became his friend while he grew up. He had different best friends to adhere to his age some dead and one well, alive--which was amusing yet weirdly realistic.  The adventures were filled with lessons and would just leave you stirring. The ending was both sad and auspicious that it branched to different realizations as well as interpretation.

Here’s mine.

In a dissected manner of viewing it:

Personally, what Nobody Owens experienced in the graveyard was in reality, a childhood spent in a small town where dreams were hardly viewed as possible except to a few some. The graveyard had rules, boundaries and limits. It had set an allusion that what lied beyond their place was dangerous and better off unravelled especially of a boy who, when he was young, a product of tragedy of that world. It’s like, a typical family raising their children in an overly safe manner.  Although, children were guileless, spirited and spontaneous that they tend to break these rules to set on adventures that they thought weren’t consequential. Bod had these adventures and these things he took as experience moulded him for the future.

The fact that his guardian/s kept their work clandestine was for me, how the ones we love are doing everything without our knowing to keep us safe; that even though you are gapped by years of experience and intelligence, where their actions are directed are to your own good.

During his stay in the graveyard, he had a chance to go to the real world; here he discovered both positive and negative things. He first met greed, avarice, anger etc..; he also learned things he once thought were fallacious or fictitious were actually real. He felt love as well as heartache. It was already clear to him that a person to like you deeply would only be true once you are accepted as who you are.  He was also taught that what the dead could remember, the ones who are alive possibly could not. This particularly stroked me, as the dead only became figments with their memories intact while people live on hoping to forget the tragedy of death.

No matter how peaceful a place was, trouble would always find you. The good thing was, by the time evil caught up with Bod, he already knew how to deal with it. Time was his friend and it was kind enough to show him how he was the only one changing and to be appropriate, he needed an environment that could be par with his own.

So when the graveyard, the adventures it had given him and the people who stayed with him decided he was ready for the world, he took this as a chance to be great. It was up to him if he wanted to bring the memories of his childhood with him; if these people should always be his inspiration; if he would again visit the graveyard.

Our childhood is like the graveyard- it is nothing but buried memories to some, while to others, it is where they build their tombstones made of gold—ones they can go back to in order to get nostalgic inspiration.  The graveyard gave life to the few years of our life, but it isn’t the certain life to live; for someday, we will leave the confines of that graveyard and live real. It is up to us how to use the graveyard in the future or if not to use it at all. When we leave, we can bring some of the things it gave us, or we can erase the graveyard in our minds and start from scratch. It all depends on our graveyards.

Or maybe this is the simple message:

The graveyard is the history of everything in our life, and it will let us go after they have completely moulded us for real life.

THAT IS ALL! Thank you, Neil Gaiman!

Hormonal imbalance or what?

Should men be conceited, women are conscious.

Apparently, not only counseling can make you see things in a clear thought process--books can. Lots of it can technically prove a statement. Say.. people of the same interest are most likely to fall in love? It depends entirely on the person who perceives it. Like, someone who studies literature is apt to find someone who studies the same subjects worthy of attention. Or maybe, an actor from an obscured town would meet someone from the same place and actually make magic. And with these examples, all can surmise that the books my realization was based upon are cheesy romance novels. The problem is, what if I don't find someone whose interests equal mine? Because, all things considered, I don't have a specific passion. My interest are jumbled and non-categorical.

What bugs me-a female- is what part of myself is interesting. If miraculously, googling yourself can show all the unique things that make you attractive and unparalleled, I would, by all means, stop wallowing and pronounce myself capable of a mature relationship. But instead displaying my utter happiness for a matter that seems so out of reach, here I am suffering from existential crisis.

So, existential crisis might be a bit exponentially heavy a term for what I am feeling at the moment. The point is, maybe I 'm just secretly yet desperately trying to extend attributes I don't have. So, I want to rediscover my true self and be comfortable with it.


1.You are a Nursing student, one of your interests is helping people alleviate pain.
2.You enjoy books imbued with fantasy, romance, homosexuality, dark themes, and drama.
3.You love movies with subtle plots and poignant lines.
4. You love music with simple but deeply moving lyrics.
5. You watch comedies with satire, a bit of parody and carnal stupidity.
6. You support the LGBT in your own emotional way.
7. Odd things interest you, like weird animals, unconventional art, hidden stories, and  bent historical facts.
8. You take interest in Serial Killer's psyche.
9. If someone brags about reading/watching something that is to them the best thing ever, you read/watch it  for proof or just to prove them wrong.
10.You prefer imagination that's why you hate graphic novels (yet you still won't miss movies based on books you've read even if there are only a few) .
11. You love movies with narration.
12. You love working with eye make-ups.
13. You don't want to be called stupid although you're not really that smart.
14.You attempted to learn lucid dreaming.
15. You get lost inside your mind too often.
16. You obsess with things excessively (remeber slash fandom? SXS, J2?).
17. You plot your own love story to the nines.
18. You try too much to make a statement.
19. You write when you just don't know anymore..

TBC..

One of my plans to know my life is not in the static line.

 **I shall collect a memento from every place  I go and put it in a Scrapbook.
 **Put in the date, the name of the person you're with and a sentence or two about your thoughts.

Keep in mind, that you are special! If people don't see this, then you are not to incorporate said people in any way into your life but  mere pebbles on the way. As what I have said earlier, how interesting a person can be depends on the individual who perceives it; there is someone out there who sees or will see you as the only girl unequaled. Yep, you just have to utilize the proverbial wait. ^^

Laziness, Business Or Just Plain Apathy?

If it's a good idea to suddenly decide to update your blog after over half a year of being idle then maybe I'm not wasting my time. What's irritating, though  is the fact that you missed spilling your thoughts during the most fun and probably sentimental dates of the year. Because trust me, something is worth telling about Christmas or New Year's. Not to mention, Valentines, Summer and Intramural. Maybe I lack the energy or simply got tired of typing after less than 20 updates in this blog.XD

So yeah, it is not possible to look back on what happened the remaining months of 2009 and the earlier months of 2010. What I did remember, though is my Ate got a new job according to her degree. I was- still am happy for her, not only because of the money she can now lend me for my school, but also because it diminished her anxiety over being a bum-which she wasn't. My Tatay scored a two-month contract with doubled monthly salary, so yeah.. They got lucky, which only tickles my urge to finish my studies and see if I could become lucky myself. I can't doubt nor assure myself, because honestly? I have no idea.

During the summer, we got a new laptop. Yaya! Much better memory and I couldn't ask for more. WHat ticked off me was the irony of the keyboard having problems because of my brother's fault. So yeah, the "period" key's whacked. I have to like, copy a period and paste it just to finish a declarative sentence.

Good thing? A very good thing! During the summer hiatus--no not really because we had our summer classes. Anyways, my Ate gave me my new fandom! Thankies much for giving me the taste of this perfect friendship-or more. SO yeah, the now married--although not to each other :( Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles! J2, Padackles! So yeah, the most talented fanfiction writers are all dedicated to this fandom so no time wasted.


Another good but gross thing? I had been assigned on the DR!! Yeah! I was able to find myself some pretty kickass cases. So I was a little queasy at first. Hell, even at the end actually, but it takes a little bit of getting used to; it still kicked ass.

 And so there was intrams, it was fun but not as fun as last year's. 2 guys got interested. Unfortunately though, no one interested me. No scratch that, there was this guy I had my panties in a knot over--but he's freaking taken. So cross over his name.
 The photos during these events are all only Facebook. I'm still thinking about updating my blog on LJ, but it took me all my willpower just to type this blog, so I'm guessing miracle intervention.

I need to post something else and prove that I haven't betrayed this journal, yet.

I WON'T. Once tiredness settled in your nerves, even thinking of another story to tell will be so sickening. So,yep. I have betrayed FUJIYOSHI999. My older cherub999 ego cried last night so I decided to use my LJ account. I don't feel bad, I feel irritated about how I long I figured how the navigation works on there.

So, yep. I have decided to keep this short and a little bit out of date to be fair(nice try covering for your laziness Fujiyoshi). Wish me luck for my Health Teaching tomorrow! =3

Tired yet still breathing,
FUJIYOSHI999

I MISSED TO UPDATE A LOT OF THINGS!!!!

Jeez, trust me-A LOT of interesting things happened!

The days before sembreak and the sembreak itself was full of story-not to mention the start of the second semester! I was just so lazy and too preoccupied to update! Honestly..

We took a day off to the pool and boy was it fun! I promise to rant about this next time when I get hold of our sexy pics! I was in a bikini bra! I can't wait to post it, though I'm too embarrassed posting it to other sites. 

NEWS FLASH---I am now officially wearing make-ups! I lurve beautifying myself lately! What karma hit me? My brother played with my lipstick. He's not at fault by thinking walls have lips, too. Darn innocence..

Anyways, classes are ongoing. Nutrition Laboratory had started and I enjoyed chopping and mincing and etc..

I'm loving everything except for the added loads in homeworks and studies.. =3

Oh, I've caught up with Katekyoushi Hitman Reborn, and started Axis Powes Hetalia and Samurai Champloo! APH and SC are effing awesome! I am soooo addicted!

Very happy,

FUJIYOSHI999

MAYAOPAYAWAN!!

That is where my friend Chacha lives and boy, were we laughing! We went there via SKATES! Yep, it's a vehicle that traverse the railway. It's machine powered but still, it was like a roller coaster ride. The thing is open and the seats were only 4 inches in width. A lot of bumps on the way, but it was worth it! It was a lot of fun!

We ate almost of every minute when we got there.. Crabs, crops, fruits, bihon, cake.. and LOTS, LOTS more..

We drank for some time, but because of our bloated stomachs, we didn't manage to finish the last bottle. We went home laughing so hard that I had to hold on more tightly to the skates.

Here are the pics:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I was effing happy. But due to my stomach's inability to accommodate great amount of food, I PUKED afterward.. At home, though..

I can't wait til Sunday! We are gonna have our swimming!!!

DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY

FUJIYOSHI999

I am crushing on a certain BEAST!

The star of the show "The Beast", Travis Fimmel is driving me crazy. He's just so big that I can't help but notice him every single scene he's in! He reminds me of Seifer Almasy for some reasons.. Really,he's cute! He's also a Calvin Klein model.. =3 Oh, and I love him better with short hair. He's more masculine..

I just checked his profile.. He's 30

Listening to:Lollipop by Framing Hanley

DROOLING,

FUJIYOSHI999

STUPID!!!!!!

The evidence of how stupid a Fujiyoshi999 could be lies under this post. Yep,the one below! My previous post! See how it reads, ONE PIECE GER PART 2?

I DON'T SPEAK NOR UNDERSTAND  GERMAN..

3'=

I'm gonna have to reload it..

IS SAD ABOUT HER STUPIDITY,

FUJIYOSHI999

I am outdated with One Piece!

My gawd.. I've been so busy that I missed the latest 4 episodes! That means, I have ignored the anime for one month!! 3= I am a disgrace to the ONE PIECE COMMUNITY!!!!

I AM GONNA START CATCHING UP TONIGHT!!!

I have nothing elese to say..

STILL BREATHING,

FUJIYOSHI999 

SHOPPED FOR SOME TOPS

I have said before that I am out of clothes.Fashion is not a really big issue in our school,but still.. If you're a girl,then you want to at least look good. I was surprised when my mom suddenly told us to get ready because we are going to invade the 50% sale at the mall.

There are a lot of people, but not as much as I anticipated. I bought 4 tops. Jeez, I mean, they were Php 400+ each before and I bought each for Php 200+! Happy, I thought of buying some pants, but it can wait. Dresses were only Php 300+! Gawd if I weren't so broke..

I've extremely lost weight so I enjoyed shopping for smaller sizes.But mind you,it's hard. I think I've become anorexic that everything just seemed too big for me..

VITAL STATISTICS: 

CHEST:31"(I still have my boobs, though)

WAIST:23" 

HIPS:30"

BUTTOCKS:32"

HEIGHT:5'1'

WEIGHT:43kg

BMI:17.9

I AM  UNDERWEIGHT

You know what made my heart ache right before leaving the house? He was online on Yahoo Messenger.Yep, I know him,and he would only appear online to me if he has something to say.. My heart was thundering inside my ribs! And guess what..He signed out all of a sudden..

Yesterday we finished  the rescue drama.It was embarrassing! I don't wanna elaborate on the details,cause really! I will upload the photos of our little reenactment when my friend already has it.. =3

LISTENING TO: THE YELLS OF JABBAWOCKEEZ FANS

IS TIRED,
FUJIYOSHI999

I can't believe I forgot.

I saw him.. On my way out of the campus Gelly was like, "Oh my God, it's..." I just frowned, of course it could be anyone. And then, there he was with two faceless boys. OMG did I almost die! Yep, my heart was pounding hard. I felt a connection, I don't know about him. He was wearing the same smug smile. We both gave each other side glances. Conscious as ever, I wanna go grab a mirror if I looked ok. I was smiling the rest of the time. I bought jelly candies again. There goes the coincidence again. Anyways,here are my new photos after we finished decorating the documentation pictures.

Listening to: When it Rains by Paramore

STILL BREATHING,

FUJIYOSHI999

CPR?

Jeez,I have no training.. I guess YouTube will have to do the job.

There.. I just need to watch it. I've read the procedures. =3

Listening to: All About Us by T.A.T.U.

CLUELESS:

FUJIYOSHI999

Yay, I've done so much today!!!!

Yes!!! First, the quiz in NCM is finished. That's the last quiz for the subject, actually. I did not study--again. Well, I got 12 out of 15. Not bad. Yep, we talked about.. SEXUALITY. A lot of sex and other stuffs related to it.Yes, I was once again the sex guru. I explained tons about the different paraphilia. And yeah,I enjoyed it. Everyone was disgusted with some of the weirdness.

In the afternoon, we had 2 quizzes. One, I perfected and the other.. Well, I got a score of 80. The passing is 85. I passed my notebook. One requirement of our dearest Franky. Microbiology didn't appeal much to me, so I skipped the class. The end  does not justify the means, but I did it so I can finish the poster we need for our SA class tomorrow. It's already finished. It took me more than 2 hours, though. There's still something off about it. I just can't put my finger on it. It's right here.

Oh, and another finished project  is our documentation on our Family Case Load .Although,we are so stupid as to deliberately forget to bring it to school. It's stilllying on my friend's bed room. It is very Retro inspired. I AM PROUD OF IT! My friend Chacha and I made this.

 

 

 

 

 

COLORFUL

And the non-traditional exam was the one I perfected. It wasn't given yesterday because of Franky's determination to finish the lesson. We didn't finish it anyway.   It was farking unbelievable. A word hunt! The anwers are all given you just have to find it. I hope all the exams are like that!!

Tomorrow, we're gonna have our finals for CHN and P.E. Speaking of which, I need to learn CPR. We have to act a certain instance wherein someone drowns. It should be reality based, not some impossible theatrical story. I'm the one appointed to do the rescue. That's another issue I need to finish.

The lyrics for our Philosophy project was submitted just this afternoon.We didn't use the crappy lyrics one of my group mates proposed. It was cheesy,and well..just stupid. We didn't write the lyrics, my group mate's friend did so we need to acknowledge him. What we did was actually illegal. We didn't ask for his permission,but Janine (my group mate) said that he would contact him as soon as possible.

That was just that. I still need to study, but my notes aren't with me right now.. I lost it..3=

Listening to: Full Metal Alchemist's New OP

Watching: Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood's Latest Episode

Reading: The subtitles

HAPPY AND TIRED,

FUJUYOHI999

STAYING UP LATE TONIGHT!!!!

Yes, yes, yes!My class will start at 1:30 in the afternoon tomorrow. I'm very happy. One subject and I'm off to anywhere I wanna go. I've never been this joyful about school. We will have a quiz,though--the non-traditional one. I have no idea. I'm gonna appoint my 2 hours for reading tomorrow at 10-12 am. It wouldn't take that long, though I'm sure.

Here are my plans for the evening:

Read Manga

    esp. Playboy Blues

Watch Anime:

esp. Trinity Blood

and D Gray man

Listen to music

esp. UVERworld

and Aqua Timez

And of course sleep at 2am.

I'm gonna go rest first before indulging with my relaxation process. =3

WHAT IS BOTHERING FUJIYOSHI999?

MY OUTFIT FOR TOMORROW!

Aside from the fact that I have I have no clue whether it'd be sunny or not tomorrow, I'm out of clothes. I can't even think about buying new ones. I AM BROKE!

I need to have my rest right...... NOW

Listening to: Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh by Bright Eyes

VERY JOYFUL,

FUJIYOSHI999

TIRED AND NEUTRAL--The Normal

Yep, I'm getting really fatigued and lethargic. Just two weeks and everything will be okay.  Jeez, it was good news that I don't have any make-up classes in our CHN class. I do remember having a few late absents, though. Luck is on my side so far. NCM is another issue. The records aren't submitted yet so I have no idea how many hours I'll be having.

Frankenstein wasn't so bad today, he actually made me laugh a little because of this:

Dx=DIAGNOSIS

Vx=/= VIAGNOSIS

Yes, that was a Filipino inside joke. And he didn't figure out why we were laughing until a few seconds later. We didn't have the supposed long test he said he would give. Instead, he would make a harder one and give it to us this coming Thursday. He was also blabbing about a non-traditional exam. I didn't really care. Exams are always exams!

And yeah, I was laughing hard during our Microbiology lab. It wasn't even funny,but still! Really, almost all of my classmates were not yet finish answering their papers so there was only a few who knew of what happened. Yep, my laugh broke their concentration. An,mind you,my laugh is contagious so.. You know what happened. Our topic was all about parasitism. We were supposed to bring an ascaris we didn't have the time to find a kid whom we can purge.  And this was what made me laugh. He was serious and he didn't mean to be funny. His face was really neutral when he said it like it was nothing out of the ordinary.

SCENARIO:

 

Professor: You know, I've read somewhere that some people, use tape to get rid of hookworms. Yes, the worm which causes your anus to itch at night.(No one was listening, during this time)

FUJIYOSHI999: What, they stick the tape right there?!

Professor:Yes, they do. They do it before bedtime, so when the hookworm comes out it'll stick to the tape unable to move. You know the rest. You guys should have thought of this. This is the what you should have done.

FUNNY GUY: But Ma'am, our anuses don't itch.

Professor: Oh, this isn't for you, young man. It's for your supposed patient.

AND I LAUGHED.

PROFESSOR: Okay class, those who have submitted their papers may go. And don't forget to bring one fecal sample for every group next meeting.

FUNNY GUY: (Turns to his group mates) Okay, who'll bring the shit?

AND I LAUGHED.

LOLing,

FUJIYOSHI999

Reminicing ZETSUBOU SENSEI!

Aww... I just realized I haven't the anime yet. Yes, watched some scenes and I can't help but miss it.I love the characters especially Itoshiki himself. Very negative yet sexy. His Seiyuu also voiced Trafalgar Law of One Piece!!

I lurve it...

 

 

 

 

Nothing better than slacking off before a quiz.

Yes, I am officially infected with my Laziness disease. And no, I didn't ditch school. It's our vacant time and I am not studying. We are going to have 3 quizzes this afternoon and   I don't give a damn.

I have nothing else to do but sit here and savor the relaxing moment. It's funny how I chose blogging than reading, I mean, duh.. I'm so tired from the long project last week that I don't really wanna think about school right now. And our teacher is Frankenstein. Oh, how I hate him right now. He'll take 2 hours of our vacant time just to finish his lecture. And this is gonna happen for 3 days.

Yess..... I wanna go have some relaxing spa treatment right now. We just have one more week before this semester ends. I just hope I can still shoulder the burdens.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? I"M IN A COMPUTER SHOP RIGHT NOW!!  IT'S BEEN SO LONG!!

LISTENING TO:Something from Kamikazee. I don't know I'm not the one managing this cafe.

STILL BREATHING,
FUJIYOSHI999

Half of my burden is finished!!!

Finally, I finished the movie! Well, it's only a minute and a half long, but still!! Yes, the only thing that delayed my work was the stupidphotos. The net wasn't kind enough to quicken the download.

Yep,and stupidity is sanother thing, We didn't think of photosharing earlier than necessary.

Anyways, I've got loads of nameto memorize, and My book is missing so I better start the remaining halfof my work..

=3
I'm just so glad I drank the Cappuccino Shake, I can still stay up for a bit longer. My darn Laziness Symptoms disappeared.. Wow..

STILL BREATHING,
FUJIYOSHI999

I'm waiting for the busy days to finish.

Honestly! All of us are busy. I don't feel the weight on my shoulders that much, though compared to them.. But still..

Anyway, Kuya Rommel is supposed to send me the pictures so I can start doing the movie.

Ding!I just got a message from him just now. He said he hasn't finished attaching them yet. Oh, dear. I'm not sure what time I'll be able to start making it. Everyone's worried about my progress on this work since I'm known to just ignore things whenever I feel like it. Haha, everybody's checking on me. Jeez. My first signs of laziness are actually starting already..
                                   

SIGNS THAT I AM ABOUT TO BE SWALLOWED BY LAZINESS

1.I'm blogging.

2. I'm having fun with 3oh3.

3. I'm tempted to watch the Bleach movie that is only one click away from me.

4. My mind is flying to a certain someone.

5. I am planning to not study.

6. I'm having a really tiny doubt about what I'm gonna do.

7. The bed is warm.

8.My fiction book is laid open on the bed.

9.I'm thinking of my cold as a blessing.

10. I'm starting to come up with little but firm excuses.

Thus, my long wait shall start again.

Listening to:  Polly by Nirvana

ALWAYS LAZY,
FUJIYOSHI999
                               

Is royally pissed.

That actually expalins it all. I'm cramming with all the requirements and the stupid request letter really burned up my last string of patience! I give up! Jeez. I'm off to the community tomorrow for more info, plus there's a quiz first thing in the morning! I haven't even studied yet! I don't have anything to study with! Grrrrr....

Committees and such really got on my nerve! I just finished typing the names and the hard copy for my last lecture on the barangay is way too short because of my desire to finish it! I'm tired..

I still need to make an outline for every fucking topic on that stupid Community Theory! Yeah, I'm starting to really hate my chosen course!
That one single Frankenstein is one hell of a nuisance, too.

Oh, and I'm actually like this because I'm sick.. Yep, one way to flare up my anger again. That's how unlucky I'm getting.

DAMNED TO ETERNAL HOMEWORKS,
FUJIYOSHI999

I am in love with this Japanese Band!

UVERworld

Like, really.. They're the greatest right now. The voice is as unique as uniqueness itself! They sang for some animes like, Blood+, Bleach and Naruto. I'm not sure about Naruto, though since I hate it.

FAVE SONGS:

Colors of the Heart

D Technolife

Chance

I plan on downloading more of their songs. =3

Listening to: Sugat by Dicta License

STAR_EYED AND DROOLING,

FUJIYOSHI999 

Back to day one again..

Assigned at CHO again.. And I have the effing toothache! Honestly, it was hard enough to endure the pain, but putting up a smile is worse! I did the Snellen Test and boy, did I get infinitely pissed when I had to repeat the instructions over and over! Seriously, I was tempted to ask for a painkiller at the dispensary,but I knew better..

It was Teachers' day and I had no clue, We had no classes again this afternoon but we still went to class because there was no notes whatsoever about the event. Our information page was totally blank.

I was once again, royally hungry so we went out of the campus to settle for our late merienda. I bought a chili dog and Cappuccino Shake. My stomach didn't react very well to my sudden consume of oddly large amount food, so I almost puke at the girl's restrooms. Definitely not good..



I didn't see him again today. It's been so long since I last saw him. I'm going crazy, by the way.

Listening to: Simple by Katy Perry

SUFFERING FROM UNREQUITED LOVE ,

FUJIYOSHI999

My heart, it beats--beats for only you..

Yeah, so much has happened. Another typhoon ravished our country and though our region hadn't been covered by the route, our classes were suspended Friday afternoon and Saturday.

Friday noon, my lovedum girl-friend went to my other girl-friend's house which was where we were and spontaneity took over by suddenly deciding to go out for a drink. Jeez, the rain and the wind sent chaotic howls, but it didn't faze us one bit. We were impossibly hungry after having a few glasses of beer that I decided to buy an oatmeal cookie at the adjacent cafe.

It didn't satisfy my stomach so we decided to go grab some sweets before going home. Yep some kickass pastry with a bunch of frosting sent me to heaven.. Oh, loves.. I got home early and decided to watch Trinity Blood which was effing awesome. I love, love, love, love...

TRES "GUNSLINGER" IQUS

 

 

That, people, is the meaning of gorgeous..

And I still missed him. The whole time I was in the little bar I was hoping he would be the next person to open the door. 3=

 

Listening to: Whole Lotta Love by Led Zeppelin

Watching: Trinity Blood, durr..

Reading: No money to buy a good book at the moment.

 

Unmistakably in love with the same person again,

FUJIYOSHI999

I cried.. Coz you're the best I got..

    LONG SHOT 

by Katy Perry

                                     

I felt it
The wire touched my neck and
Then someone pulled it tighter
I never saw it coming
I started to black out and
Then someone said good morning
I took it as a warning
I should have seen it coming
So now I’ll take a chance on
This thing we may have started
Intentional or not I
Don’t think we saw it coming
It’s all adding up to something
That asks for some involvement
That *asks for a commitment
I think I see it coming
If we step out on that limb

My heartbeat* beats me senselessly
Why’s everything got to be so intense with me
I’m trying to handle all this unpredictability
In all probability

It’s a long shot and I say why not
If I say forget it I know that I’ll regret it
It’s a long shot just to beat the odds
The chance is we won't make it
But I know if I don't take there's no chance
But you're the best I've got
So take the long shot

I realize that there is all this starting
That we're both scared about but
We’ll never see them coming
Throw caution to the wind and
We’ll see which way it's blowing
And to this pulling on
We’ll never see it coming
Until it's much too close to stop

My heartbeat beats me senselessly
Why’s everything got to be so intense with me
I’m trying to handle all this unpredictability
In all probability

It’s a long shot and I say why not
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
If I say forget it I know that I’ll regret it
It’s a long shot just to beat the odds
The chance is we won't make it but I know if I don't take it there's no chance
Cause I’m the best you've got
So take the long shot

What a pleasant surprise, what a breath of fresh air
You knock the wind out of me
*Blind-sided and* so unaware

Ahaa, ahaa, ahaa

Oh I waited for fact to come of fiction
And you fit my description
I never saw you coming
But we'll make it even though

It’s a long shot and I say why not
If I say forget it
I know that I’ll regret it
It’s a long shot just to beat the odds
The chance is we won't make it
But I know if I don't take it there's no chance
Cause you're the best I've got
So take the long shot

You didn't expect this
Oh you never saw me coming
You didn't expect this
Oh you never saw this coming

I take the long shot
I take the long shot, shot, shot, shot, shot, shot
Cuz you're the best I got

Oh I’m taking this chance on you baby
I’m taking this chance on you baby
I’m taking this chance

----------------Loving the song. Kelly Clarkson has her own version, but I prefer Katy coz I can see myself in her.. 3=

EMOTIONALLY TAINTED,

FUJIYOSHI999

Is in love with their music..=3

Classes ended at three. I took off alone and went to the mall to check out some fiction books. I found none that captures my interest so I left empty handed.

I went home and played some music.. Katy Perry's Long Shot brought me to tears as I truly could relate.
All in all, I fell in love with Aqua Timez as always.. Yep, and up to now I'm still drowning in his sweet voice..

=3





Is diverting my attention away from the devil,
FUJIYOSHI999

What happened after I ate my breakfast..

First off, it was a an unhealthy breakfast. Yep, and I thought I was one conscious girl, but yeah.. I ate a greasy burger. My mom bought unnecessary groceries. Too much fat and grease. I wonder how I MANAGED TO EAT IT. I don't eat pork and beef now a days. The only meat I can eat is chicken. Not necesaarily breast, but other meat just seem so tough.

               This is where my conscious self suddenly remerged! Yep, when I think about all the calories.. Jeez, my stomach churns. Mind you, I eat a lot of chocolates but when it comes to these meals part of my brain is so active about thoughts.

             Growth and Development. My CI discussed this subject, and through his tiny frame, I can totally imagine a child's form. And yes, this is the same CI who doodled penis as an advanced lesson. I was yawning halfway through the discussion.

             I rushed a letter of request for our project and have the lectures of my classmate photocopied. Jelly candies!! We bought Jelly candies on our way to my friend's home. Who was I with?? Yep, her name's Gelly.. What a sweet coincidence.

           I arrived at my friend's home ALONE. She wasn't here yet before. Yep, I'm using her computer now.. I still have classes later, with a new CI. I call him Frankenstein. His temple is a little too big, kinda like the character I named him with.

           I can hear them talking about the usual problem--LOVE. Yep, too much drama that I decided to just update my blog. Lol I do care a bout her, but I already commented on this issue just this morning. It's time for other friends to take over.

CONFESSION:
                           I still am in love with him and I miss him. I had this dream last night. I was with someone I don't know. It seems awkward unlike my dreams when I'm with him.. The feelings I have are not as strong as before it's still there all the same. I'm on emo mode, although no one seems to notice...

My day isn't over, yet so Imma rant about this later this evening.. =3

STILL BREATHING,

FUJIYOSHI999